incongruence

So, I haven't touched this blog for ages, which is in fact a good thing since the main purpose I revamped it for was to write down things that I hoped someone would see. And in later findings, I realised that the person did view this blog afterall.

I didn't mean for history to repeat itself. Who'd have known, it's been so long. Till now, I'm really puzzled why you fussed over the phone conversation T and I had. 6 years of friendship as quoted from you, and you still doubt my sexual preferences? You asked why I didn't call you the day I decided to meet M. Well, let me ask you. Would you actually initiate calls/msgs to someone who refused to reply despite apologies made? I don't cos I didn't think I did anything wrong and was indignant. Besides, isn't it rather absurd to get so furious over such a small matter?

The meeting for me, was to seek the truth yet you cried betrayal. How else would I be able to understand the situation without seeking him out? One keeps denying, while the other says something else. If you were me, I'm quite sure you would do the same just to hear both parties out. I have to clarify something; the meeting was the first time I ever really spoken to him ever since all those shit happened.

You said you couldn't believe I would rather trust M's words over the 6 years we had. If the words be true, I find it really incredulous that you would lie to me over the same 6 years. It's not a matter of whose words I'm taking in. I just choose to believe in the evidence. The phone messages, they were really shocking. It made me wonder if the G that I know is really you, or have I been calling a stranger my bestfriend for so long? I saw them with my own eyes and truly, the contents spoke of your messaging style. If they are fabricated as what you claim, how do you explain the photos then? And what about the friendster message? I saw that way before the conference, and I saw it again for the second time on the night of conference. How do you explain why it's missing now, and why is that you claim you have never seen that very message before?

Well I don't know all these words would ever be delivered to you, but I hope that someday you would chance upon this.

All I'm seeking is the truth, is that so hard to ask for?
Where do we go now, what do we do?

posted by txy @ 5:50 PM